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Mar 26, 2007 18:04:54 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 26, 2007 18:04:54 GMT -5
Tommy slipped into the greenhouse. "Hello?" He called out wondering if the bio class was in here...or anyone else was using the area for a meeting. There was no response. He was in luck. Tommy pulled his light jacket around his body and leaned against a table.
He wiped his face to make sure that there was no evidence of tears. Only a few escaped...but he needed to make sure. Angel coudln't see him...not ruined like that. Then he chuckled to himself. It seemed like it was the only real reason why he was here and why Angel was probably on his way. So Angel could see him broken and fix him.
Tommy hold onto his elbows and watched the door.
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Mar 27, 2007 18:11:39 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 27, 2007 18:11:39 GMT -5
Angel stared at the door for a minute before opening it. He was relatively sure that Tommy wouldn't be mad...he wasn't one hundred percent, but he doubted it. But that didn't made the feeling in the pit of his stomach go away. It was just one more thing that he could've prevented. What if it happened again? What if Tommy decided that what they were doing wasn't worth it? What if that was the reason Tommy was was wanting him then?
He placed his hand on the handle, swallowing hard. If that was the case...he was just gonna have to change his mind. Prove to Tommy that he was worth it. But that wouldn't change the fact that he felt like shit.
Maybe he was being stupid. Tommy was gay before he met him. It might've happened with anybody....Angel stopped as he realized he'd been stalling for nearly two minutes.
He pulled the door open quickly, swallowing hard. "Tommy?"
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Mar 27, 2007 21:50:40 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 27, 2007 21:50:40 GMT -5
Tommy's heart skipped a beat. He was coming in. "Hey...hey Angel," He said quietly hoping that his voice wouldn't sound scratchy from all the emotions that seemed to have decided to take up residence there. "Sorry, that Benny pulled you out. It was all his idea...I could have waited but..." He sighed knowing that he could have waited but there was no way that he wanted to, "But I'm glad you're here. And I'm sorry to be all...whiney I guess." He looked down at his hand now feeling more embaressed then anything.
"I just wanted to see you for a minute. If you have to get going home, I understand. Just wanted to...see you," Tommy said with a small shrug. It was the truth. Tommy didn't need much, he just needed to know that Angel was there. And he loved him.
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Mar 27, 2007 22:07:50 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 27, 2007 22:07:50 GMT -5
"Hi..." Angel replied as he saw Tommy, trying to smile. It was difficult, considering all that'd happened though. Did Tommy feel as bad as he felt. No...he must've felt worse. "It's okay...I heard what happened," he swallowed, his throat dry. Suddenly he was back in that gym class again, trying to say something. Completely unsure. Just when he'd thought Tommy had changed that...
"It's okay...I'll stay as long as you want me to," he promised. He realized how it could've been taken two different ways, and he didn't try to change it. It was true. Tentatively he took a few steps towards Tommy. Not too close, though. He wanted to give the senior as much space as he needed.
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Mar 27, 2007 22:22:25 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 27, 2007 22:22:25 GMT -5
Tommy watched Angel's reaction...had Benny pulled him out when he didn't want to? No, if that was the case he'd be more...not like this. "Yeah. Fun, huh? I just keep trying to tell myself that sticks and stones won't break my bones. And that I can always get another copy of Cather in the Rye. One that doesn't smell like old underwear..." Tommy looked down at his hands again. "Not that...that makes it better."
Tommy raised his brow and then shrugged. "I won't...keep you. I'm sorry Angel...it was silly. Benny...he meant well but you...you don't have to...you know you aren't here just to make thing...better for me I guess. So you know...it's ok. If you wanna go."
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Mar 27, 2007 22:29:17 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 27, 2007 22:29:17 GMT -5
"Tommy...if I was just gonna leave a minute later, I wouldn't have come at all," Angel said honestly. It was hard to tell just what Tommy was thinking. Did he want him there? Was he trying to subtley tell him to leave? "Please...tell me. I won't be offended. Do you want me here or do you want me gone? I love you...I'll stay as long as you want, but if you don't at all, say so."
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Mar 27, 2007 22:35:57 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 27, 2007 22:35:57 GMT -5
Tommy blinked for a few moments thinking. "Angel...I don't think there is a time or place where I wouldn't want youto be there with me. I just..." He sighed deeply and smiled hesitantly. "You love me. And...that's what I needed to hear. I'm..." He moved his hand around and laughed.
"I guess for all of the talk of me not being the normal guy...I guess I am. Cause I can't figure out a way to say that I just...the sad thing is that these guys who did this must have known me. Cause all throughout middle school and til now, that book was the only thing that got me though. And they ruined that." He paused and held his breath. "Could you just...hug me?" He asked knowing that he would sound ridiculous.
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Mar 27, 2007 22:47:50 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 27, 2007 22:47:50 GMT -5
Angel didn't speak, simply listened to Tommy. He should've known...Scarsdale was a good school but homophobia was a problem. For everybody like Mimi or Benny there were about ten Cathrines. Of course some of their friends were going to be in the majority. Probably more of Tommy's, if he knew them from football.
He didn't waste a second closing the distance between them. Wrapping his arms around Tommy's neck, he sighed softly.
"Of course I love you. I'm just...worried..." he swallowed. "I mean...lets face it. We both know this won't be the last time something like this happens. And...just..." he trailed off, holding Tommy a bit closer. Maybe it wasn't the best moment for that kind of talk. "I love you," he repeated.
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Mar 27, 2007 22:58:45 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 27, 2007 22:58:45 GMT -5
Tommy held onto Angel tightly feeling so relieved. It was what he was waiting for. Ever since he saw what was on his locker. He needed to feel Angel's arms around him. That's what he needed. "Thank you," He whispered quietly into Angel's ear.
"I love you, too," Tommy replied. "And yeah, you're right. This probably won't be the last time. But...even though this sucks. I'm ok. Because you're here...and I'm ok. And I know that I'm stronger than these guys and whatever...but right now I want to wallow. At least for a few minutes," He admitted with a quite laugh.
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Mar 27, 2007 23:05:18 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 27, 2007 23:05:18 GMT -5
"I'm ok too," Angel replied, a wave of relief washing over him. He'd half expected Tommy to call it off. To say it wasn't worth and say goodbye. But then again, Tommy was constantly surprising him, anyway. "Wallow, honey...you deserve it," he whispered, kissing Tommy's ear gently and rubbing his back. "It's not being whiny, don't worry."
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Mar 28, 2007 14:04:49 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 28, 2007 14:04:49 GMT -5
"Good...I didn't want to...make you nervous either. Like you said...this probably is just the start. Yeah, I'm probably scaring you now. But...I mean we do have a support system. Which is good, I guess. I never would have thought that Benny would be so supportive...after how he reacted at first. But...Benny always did do the opposite of what I expect him to," Tommy admitted with a small sigh, still unwilling to let go of Angel.
"Thanks..." Tommy repeated just grateful to hear that it was ok to feel horrible. That he didn't have to be something else, act as if it didn't bother him. He could be himself with Angel.
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Mar 28, 2007 21:28:51 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 28, 2007 21:28:51 GMT -5
"Me neither....after what you told me," Angel admitted. He'd known Benny had to have been okay, since he was dating Mimi, He doubted she'd date someone like that. But from what Tommy'd said...he'd had his doubts. It was just good to see that it wasn't like that. "We do. I mean...I can name a few off the top of my head. Something I didn't expect, but....that's gonna make it easier," Angel nodded. He leaned up to kiss Tommy gently, rubbing his back.
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Mar 28, 2007 22:05:55 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 28, 2007 22:05:55 GMT -5
"Yeah, it will. And hey....I could always use my pranking skills. They've gotten a little rusty lately," Tommy pointed out with a small smile. "That would give them something to worry about..." His brain was already in motion. Trying to figure out what his plan of attack would be.
He kissed Angel back putting his evil thoughts on hold for a moment. When they parted Tommy smiled gently. "Thanks. I think your kisses are...calm inducing...or something like that."
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Mar 28, 2007 22:17:26 GMT -5
Post by Angel Schunard on Mar 28, 2007 22:17:26 GMT -5
"Pranking skills?" Angel repeated...though he couldn't say it surprised him. Somehow it fit. "You haven't mentioned these pranking skills. Care to enlighten me?"
"I'm glad. That I can have that effect on you. And trust me...you don't have to hold back infront of me. I've already told you things I thought I was never gonna tell myself...if you wanna talk I'm here. Or if you want me to take off, I can do that too," he promised.
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Mar 28, 2007 22:22:54 GMT -5
Post by Tommy Collins on Mar 28, 2007 22:22:54 GMT -5
Tommy let out a sole laugh. "Oh yeah...but promise you'll still like me?" He asked but then knowing what the answer would be he continued, "Remember last year when the uh...the gym was covered in shaving cream? That was me. And the few weeks before...when all of the crickets from the science lab were running amock...that was me. And...oh yeah. The time at the football game where the pom poms had glue in them and the cheerleaders were stuck to them...yeah I think you get the picture."
Collins shook his head. "You taking off is never a part of my equation..." He kissed his forehead gently and smiled gently. "I'm...I'm happy that we have this. That we can talk. It's comforting."
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