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Post by Tommy Collins on May 31, 2007 10:21:18 GMT -5
"I wouldn't think pretending would work," Tommy said quietly as he pulled him closer. He was all aware how hard this was going to be for Angel. But it had to be done, one way or another. "Okay, just...I don't want you to...be tip toeing around all of your life. Or even for an instant. I can't really be Mr. I know it all when it comes to coming out, but... I feel better, Angel. Just with people knowing, even if they aren't really thrilled...I feel like that weight is off of my shoulders. And I don't want you to carry around that weight more than you should."
"I'm a vegitarian and I can tell you that sounds disgusting," Tommy laughed.
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Post by Angel Schunard on May 31, 2007 20:50:54 GMT -5
"I know but...I just...I honestly don't know what will happen if I do. If I get kicked out I have no where to go, and I just don't know if I wanna take that sort of risk...just yet..." Angel swallowed. He knew he was going to have to. But couldn't they postpone it just a little?...say till he was thirty or so, somewhere around there? It wouldn't be so hard...would it...?
"Well, now I know it must be," Angel giggled with a nod of his head.
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Post by Tommy Collins on May 31, 2007 21:59:44 GMT -5
The unknown. It always got to everyone that was for sure. But Angel's worries had no basis, at least in Tommy's opinion. "I wouldn't worry about that. Having a place to crash. My place is always open. And I'll be a compleate gentleman and sleep on the floor. You can have the bed." Tommy smiled gently, "I know my parents had their own issues, but...I think they'll just...ignore me now frankly. Which works just fine by me."
Tommy smiled and kissed Angel's cheek for simply being so cute.
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Post by Angel Schunard on May 31, 2007 22:20:24 GMT -5
"Tommy, you haven't even gone home yet. You have no idea of knowing that and even still it would just be too awkward. There is no way they'd ever let me stay with you," Angel replied without a doubt in his mind. He barely knew Tommy's parents but he still knew...there was no way. After the way his mom reacted... "And...I mean...he's my dad. It's my family. I care about them. I just don't know if I want...if I'm ready to distance myself from them," Angel didn't meet Tommy's eyes
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Post by Tommy Collins on May 31, 2007 22:30:22 GMT -5
Tommy knew that Angel was right about that. But he shrugged, "It's my guess. And...well...who said that they have to let you stay? I got the whole bottom floor to myself, they would never know. I could sneak you food and all that," He winked at him and then squeezed his waist, "Don't worry about finding a place if the worst things happen, Ang. We got plently of friends," He pointed out.
"So...in order to be closer to your family...you're going to distance yourself from...yourself?" Tommy asked with a raised brow.
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Post by Angel Schunard on Jun 1, 2007 19:37:10 GMT -5
"Tommy...fun as it would be to live with you...I wouldn't wanna do it that way," Angel sighed gently, his shoulders heaving slightly. He knew very well that no matter what happened it wasn't going to be easy. People would be hurt. His relationship with his family members, even his home was at risk.
"I...I got tons of time to be myself. I'm just not ready to do this yet..." Angel swallowed hard, clearly uncomfortable with the whole subject.
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Post by Tommy Collins on Jun 1, 2007 19:44:16 GMT -5
Tommy nodded and then took a deep breath. "That's ok. Just...don't be afraid Angel. I...I don't want you to have to hide yourself forever," He said stopping him from walking any further. Then he reached into Angel's pocket and pulled out the necklace. Then he attempted to place it on Angel's neck. "I want you to be...who you are. Not what your father wants you to be."
"Ok..." Tommy mumbled, "How long then? Set yourself a date." He decided knowing that it was way too easily to put things off.
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Post by Angel Schunard on Jun 1, 2007 20:25:31 GMT -5
"I won't...just a little longer," Angel promised. He took a breath as Tommy began placing the necklace around his neck. It was off now for a reason... "I can't leave that on..." he pointed out, but allowed Tommy to continue. "You know I won't."
"I...I don't know...a month? Two?" Angel asked tentatively, swallowing hard.
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Post by Tommy Collins on Jun 2, 2007 23:16:59 GMT -5
Tommy watched Angel's face for a moment. Then he took off the neckland and held it out to Angel without saying anything. He knew that Angel had no intention of coming out that day...which he had no problem with. But...a little necklace? To Tommy, he thought that it would just be something little that reminded Angel...just reminded him.
"Pick," Tommy said quietly.
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Post by Angel Schunard on Jun 3, 2007 11:58:47 GMT -5
"Thanks," Angel half-whispered, shoving the necklace back down in his pocket. He couldn't leave it on, he couldn't do it. Not today. Soon, but...not right now. It wasn't time. That was taking it too far... "I'm sorry, but...it's too fast. I mean...be honest. If we hadn't gotten caught, would you have come out when you did?" he asked quietly. He'd only admitted to himself he was a few weeks ago. And he wasn't planning on getting caught the way Tommy did. He needed a little more time to figure out how. To figure out what he'd do if what he expected actually happened.
"A month," Angel replied after a moment.
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Post by Tommy Collins on Jun 4, 2007 12:44:05 GMT -5
That wasn't exactly what he wanted to hear. Tommy knew it was true...but he wanted Angel to come out...just not realize that his own way out was much simplier than what Angel had to plan. "Angel...I don't know. I hope so. But...now that I am. It makes things easier. I know that my family isn't like yours and I understand that. I just don't...want you to loose yourself. I like you too much."
"A month it is," Tommy said kissing Angel's cheek gently.
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Post by Angel Schunard on Jun 4, 2007 21:12:44 GMT -5
"But...you're not at home...there's no telling whether your parents will let you back or not. That doesn't scare you at all?" Angel asked quietly. Much as he didn't want to be...he was still dependent on his family. He still cared about them. How could Tommy cut the strings so carelessly? "I won't...I promise..."
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Post by Tommy Collins on Jun 4, 2007 21:32:45 GMT -5
"That's true. And...no. Not really," Tommy admitted. "Me and my family...or my parents really, we've never been close. No matter what they like to believe...we're not. And I think they'll let me back in. If not, I'll be fine on my own. I just gotta make it through until next September when I go to school. I got a full scholarship...I can live on my own. I'd be fine. Between then..." He shrugged. "I know Maureen, Roger, and Mark would help."
He paused knowing that Angel might not have that support. "I'm...I'm sorry. That was pretty hypocritical of me to say. I just...don't want to loose you."
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Post by Angel Schunard on Jun 4, 2007 22:03:34 GMT -5
"You won't lose me...I promise. You won't," Angel replied with complete conviction. There was no way he was gonna change. It wouldn't happen. He wouldn't let it. "It's okay, just...give me some time. I mean...believe it or not, I love my family. Even my dad. And I need some time to figure out how to do it right...tell them right. I just need to know you'll be there with me...when that day does come."
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Post by Tommy Collins on Jun 4, 2007 22:14:27 GMT -5
Tommy smiled at the confidence in his voice...he believed him. Before he was afraid that he would fall back into the closet and lock himself inside. Moving on from Tommy and finding someone else, a girl more than likely. But now, hearing Angel say that made him feel...much better.
"Okay, I trust you," He said pausing then lifting Angel's hand to kiss the top of it sweetly, "And you know I'll be there. Nothing can stop me from that."
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