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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 18:29:30 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 19, 2007 18:29:30 GMT -5
((Moved from Shop Rite - Not in the Mood))
The drive to his house seemed exceptionally long, even though it was only a few blocks. The silence was heavy, and Eric wanted to say something, but didn't know what. He was relieved when they arrived and quickly got out of the car, moving around it to open Lilia's door when she made no move to do it herself. He reached for her hand, his other hand reaching for the bag. He had to hold back a shudder at the thought of what was inside, and closed his eyes briefly.
"Coming?" he asked, when he'd regained himself enough to speak.
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 18:32:42 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 19, 2007 18:32:42 GMT -5
Lilia took a deep breath and got out of the car after Eric opened the door for her. She noticed his body language as he took the bag from her, but chose to ignore it. "Let's just get this over with," she replied, walking towards the front door. She stopped and waited for him to open the door. She really didn't want to do this.
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 18:40:51 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 19, 2007 18:40:51 GMT -5
Eric followed Lilia to the door, opening it for her and allowing her to go in first. Once inside, he flopped down onto the couch, staring at the bag in his hands for a long moment before finally gathering the courage to open it. He couldn't look at the packaging, and instead, just quickly opened it, grabbing the little plastic stick and the instructions. He could feel his face going pale and turned to Lilia. "Do you know how this works?"
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 18:48:25 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 19, 2007 18:48:25 GMT -5
Lilia sat down on the couch next to Eric as he opened up the packaging. She took the instructions from his hands and began to read, trying to buy a little more time before she had to know the truth. "Yeah, pretty much. They all work pretty much the same way, I guess," Lilia replied. She glanced down to find out how to interpret the results, hoping she would be able to remember by the time they had to figure it out. Then she took the test from Eric and walked to the bathroom.
Lilia walked out of the bathroom a minute later, her face considerably paler than it had been. "We have to wait five minutes," she said, sitting down on the couch next to Eric again.
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 18:56:08 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 19, 2007 18:56:08 GMT -5
It was an interminable wait for Lilia to come out of the bathroom. He had a slight idea of how those tests work, but didn't want to think about it. His girlfriend was taking a pregnancy test! His girlfriend! What had he done? It was surreal, and the longer he waited for Lilia, the more he berated himself.
What seemed like an eternity later, but was in reality probably only a minute or two, Lilia emerged, empty handed. He assumed she must have left the test in the bathroom and was just as happy. He didn't want to see it. Not knowing what to say to her, he simply wrapped an arm around her shoulders and kissed her cheek. "I love you," he told her, "No matter what happens."
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 18:59:35 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 19, 2007 18:59:35 GMT -5
Lilia took a shaky breath and leaned her head against Eric's shoulder as they waited. "I love you, too," she whispered, closing her eyes. "I don't want it to be positive. I'm not ready to have a baby. I'm only a sophomore... I'm not even sixteen yet." Lilia pushed the tears away as the threatened to fall again, and looked up at the clock. It wasn't time to check yet, thankfully.
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 19:06:07 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 19, 2007 19:06:07 GMT -5
Eric stroked Lilia's cheek, smoothing back her hair. "I know, Lil," he said softly, "I know. But maybe..." he didn't finish his sentence. As much as he wanted the test to say she wasn't pregnant, he was pretty sure Lilia knew her own body well enough to know if she was. She wouldn't be doing this for no reason. "We'll work it out," he promised, though he had no idea what they would do. The five minutes were almost up, and he could feel the knot in his stomach tighten. He didn't know if he wanted to see this.
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 19:11:46 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 19, 2007 19:11:46 GMT -5
Lilia took a deep breath and glanced up at the clock again. "It's almost time," she whispered, sighing. She knew that she should pull away from him and start towards the bathroom, but she didn't. She waited until the five minutes was up before even making a move. "We should go look," Lilia stated. She disentangled herself from Eric's arms and stood up slowly. "I don't really want to know." She took another deep breath and walked back into the bathroom, picking up the instructions from the test before she looked at the actual test.
Lilia sat down on the toilet in tears as the registered the results. "Oh God," she whispered, burying her hands in her face. "I can't do this."
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 19:17:28 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 19, 2007 19:17:28 GMT -5
Eric reluctantly followed Lilia into the bathroom. He didn't want to know any more than she did. Once in the bathroom, he looked curiously at the test as Lilia read the instructions, willing it to say that she wasn't pregnant. He couldn't breathe. He couldn't move. He just wanted this to be over. Lilia would tell him it said she wasn't pregnant, and they could get back to normal - and be much more careful!
But Lilia's reaction was not at all what Eric was hoping for. She was crying. She wouldn't be crying unless... unless...
"No," he whispered, standing still in the middle of the small room. He wanted to go to her, to comfort her, but he couldn't. He was rooted to the spot. Lilia was... she was... he couldn't even finish the thought. "No..."
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A Test
Aug 19, 2007 19:24:12 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 19, 2007 19:24:12 GMT -5
Lilia heard Eric's reaction, which only made her cry even harder. She pulled her knees up to her chest and buried her face into her knees. "What have we done?" she asked, whispering. Her whole life seemed to be crashing down around her as she sat there. And in nine months, her future would be changed forever. Their futures would be changed forever.
After a moment, Lilia felt as though she was going to be sick. She stood up and leaned against the wall, praying that she wouldn't get sick right then. It was bad enough to know that this wasn't going to go away easily.
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A Test
Aug 20, 2007 6:46:44 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 20, 2007 6:46:44 GMT -5
"Shit..." Eric whispered, almost completely oblivious to how ill Lilia looked. He was too busy thinking about what he was going to do. How could he have gone and gotten her pregnant? What were they going to do? Lilia was a sweet girl, but Eric certainly wasn't fit to be a parent. And he didn't want to be! There was too much else going on in his life to deal with this!
He raked a hand through his hair again. "We have to... we have to do something about it... you can't have it. You can't..."
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A Test
Aug 20, 2007 8:50:25 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 20, 2007 8:50:25 GMT -5
Lilia shook her head, trying to think about what she was going to do. This was not what she had planned. She couldn't believe that this was happening to her.
Lilia shot Eric a look full of venom at his comment. "You can't be saying that. You can't be thinking what I think you're thinking..." she began. "I don't want this either, Eric, but that is not an option."
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A Test
Aug 20, 2007 15:51:55 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 20, 2007 15:51:55 GMT -5
Eric was startled by the tone in Lilia's voice. What was she talking about? That was the only choice! They couldn't have a baby, they simply couldn't. He looked at her for a moment before replying. "It's the only way, Lil. We have to. Then we can get back to normal. Live our lives the way we're supposed to!"
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A Test
Aug 20, 2007 16:12:06 GMT -5
Post by eroberts on Aug 20, 2007 16:12:06 GMT -5
Lilia couldn't believe the words coming out of Eric's mouth; this was quite a revelation into the nature of her boyfriend's character. She shook her head, unable to speak for a few moments. Finally, she regained her voice. "The only way? For who, you? You think I'm going to consent to killing an innocent baby just because it's convenient for you?" she asked. She shook her head, tears stinging her eyes, and pushed her way past him and out of the bathroom. She walked out to the living room and looked around, trying to remember if she'd brought anything with her. After a moment, she collapsed onto the couch and pulled her knees up to her chest again, unsure of what to do.
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A Test
Aug 20, 2007 16:18:59 GMT -5
Post by eric on Aug 20, 2007 16:18:59 GMT -5
Eric simply stared in disbelief as Lilia fled the bathroom. He couldn't understand why she seemed so angry at him, he was only trying to what was best for them. After a moment, he followed her, finding her curled up on the couch. The sight of her there broke his heart, and he sat beside her, pulling her into his arms. "Lil," he said softly, "A baby would ruin our lives. You wouldn't be able to finish school, I wouldn't be able to go to college... I don't want to kill a baby, but... it's not a baby yet... We still have time."
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